Saturday, November 20, 2004

Going to aus....Not going to aus???

Yo.... i'm back, dear. It seems to be ages ago since my last blog. Many things have happened during that time. "People come, people go" ----don't ask my why i say this!!

I have experienced different feelings and learned alot of lessons for the past few weeks. Amazed to find outt hat i'm not as optimistic, cheerful and motivated as i thought. In fact, i'm lacking of self-confidence, alot. I feel so discouraged in performance and singing. Sometime, i dun even dare to take the first step when i perform or sing. "I'm not going to make it". i know it's very unhealthy to have this kind of thinking but just can't help it. Thanks to Aik teong for supporting me. I will try my best to overcome it.

On the other hand, i just found outt oday that i may be able to study in aus next year, Feb intake in Murdoch Uni. I should be glad abt it. But unfortunately, i dun feel as i ahve expected. On the contrary, i'm afraid that i can't adapt to the life there and i will definitely miss my fren, my theater, my singing lessons here. Never have such feeling b4, not even when i left for Sg last time. Anyway, i still need to double confirm with da uni (some problem witht he credit transfer matter) and check out with my dad regarding his 'financial status' first. Of course, if suddenly a local uni or col pops out with 'Media Studies' this course, i will be the first oen to enroll and stay back in malaysia.!!!