Saturday, December 24, 2005

如梦如醒

不知是终于能睡好了
逃过失眠的噩运
还是身子终于适应了生理睡眠时钟
一点准时探周生

我开始有点精神恍hu(为何找不到那个字〕
分不清哪个是梦境现实
之前在香港903听到陈奕迅的老麦主题曲
一直很期盼它能赶快登陆大马电台

今天再听到老麦的主题曲时
忽然想起
昨晚半夜时隐隐约约好象听到本地电台播放那歌曲
(我习惯开著电台伴我睡觉〕
嗯,可是应该不可能啊!
昨晚我听爱FM哦!

遭啦!搞不好是我日有所思,夜有所梦啊!
想太多了。

最近睡前或空闲时都会看哈里波特
结果有时自己心跳跟著故事情节加速
一跳就跳整个早上

看到停泊在路旁的巨无霸罗里
Hagrid的大身子立刻进入画面

门锁了,食指自动伸出来
念一连串天知道我不知道的咒语
来撬开锁著的门
当然,门是没有开的

Boo~~~~~~~~~~~

Monday, December 19, 2005

眼睛大特写

没有明显的双眼皮,也没有长到可以承著几条头发的眼睫毛,也没所谓的风眼。

我喜欢,因为它是我的一部分。第一次看到时,有种前所未有的惊叹,觉得占士捕捉得很漂亮。

我的左眼大特写出现的短片开始前的目录表。真希望christ会把它当成CD label图像。

由于
版权问题,所以不敢把那目录表和一些短片画面放上网。因此,唯有用这顶替可惜头发遮著了。


对,短片终于到手啦!除了高兴,还是高兴!毕竟能参与短片制作是难得的机会,这或许是美好的开始,也有可能是完整的句点

我也在SK11放了相关的部落格。

Time's up!

Perhaps it's time for me to get back to writing blog in English. My comprehension and command of english have been deterioting lately, such a shame for student of broadcast journalism.

Will see how things go, after all i wish to train both chinese and english.

Saturday, December 17, 2005

从不爽到喜欢

难得调了闹钟
难得只睡六个小时
牺牲了我另外宝贵的三小时
一边更衣一边骂自己干嘛接这工作
又没钱赚又搞到自己精神委靡
还要浪费钱叫的士去哪里

今天音乐学院是我半个家
因为在那里待了半天
早上练歌
下午主持红姐姐讲故事(其实也没怎么主持啦〕
傍晚主持儿童歌唱比赛

所谓的工作就是后两者
资料都是昨午才拿到,不爽
纵使我知道主办当局也不想的

上次不止讲话发抖,而且还因手握太多卡片,卡片飞出来了,糗死啦!

这次显得比较淡定了,发现不能把资料写完在卡片,卡片越少越好。唯一担心的是现在对象是小朋友,跟我相熟的人都知道我有小孩恐惧症。

最后,虽然没出糗,但略嫌太平淡了。想想(是个人名啦〕说上次虽错误百出,但胜在流程紧凑、气氛欢愉,观众也一起玩。所以有时些许压力是好的,降子才可以迫自己做到最好。至于小孩部分,嗯,中规中矩啦,我还是不适合主持小孩节目,没像红姐姐厉害!

说到秀琴,真的佩服她五体投地。她真会逗小孩,而且对小孩家庭教育有不少贡献。看她七情上脸,丰富的肢体语言,我自叹不如。哈哈,当她在扭曲脸孔,摆弄手脚时,我也想象自己在台上做出同样的表情和动作,我一定会吓倒我朋友,因为太好了!!!

结论:虽然不爽少许,就那么少许,但值得的。宝贵的主持经验,也认识朋友。哈哈,发现每次为音乐学院做主持都有这感觉,就是从不爽到喜欢。

Friday, December 16, 2005

不是我冷淡

拿起手机,阿胜语气深重地叫我先做好心理准备,我还以为什么事情。在心底已经放了几层厚厚的tilam,以防止我的心掉下来时,会粉身碎骨。什么唯二坊将拆夥的,什么明年的舞台剧胎死腹中的等等。

阿胜停顿了一阵,然后一口气用兴奋的声调把话说完。


“你入围最佳原创剧本!”
“。。。。。。”我语塞。


他很奇怪为何我没显得特别开心或感动。嗯,收到消息那一刻,真的觉得不可思议。但那感觉很快消失了。因为能够入围,是阿胜的功劳,没有他,我不可能会写那剧本。所以,兴奋指度还没爆棚 >_<

此外,Julio也入围最佳新人奖。我觉得这小子在戏剧真的有些天分,他往往会想出特别的方法让自己在一众演员中突出,入围绝对是个很大的鼓励。











呵呵,还记得今年头以观众身份参与戏炬奖时,对那红色的地毯充满憧憬,希望自己也能走。现在,终于有这机会了,还有机会一起办这戏炬奖讷!

请不要怪我冷漠,因为我对这奖项没抱有多大的奢望,我甚至忘了被提名。

不过,我还真的要感激阿胜。(拍桌子〕如果,如果啦太阳从西边起,我真的上台领奖,我一定会拉阿胜一起去

做梦啦!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

我不好欺负

我的样子看起来那么天真、好欺负吗?

下午在MV的戏院两次排队买票时(不用怀疑,我真的是排了两次队〕,竟然被ask for favor两次。














第一次,一个uncle在我旁边徘徊了许久,终于鼓去勇气接近我。


"Can u do me a favor?"
"Yes?"
"can u buy tix for me?"
".......erm... Why?"(一脸疑惑〕
"erm...cuz I'm unable to queue up here for such a long time. But i want to buy tix for Narnia at 1.50pm. And the tic is selling fast now. So, could u buy for me?"
My mind went blank.
"u can buy the tix 30 mn b4 the movie starts cuz they will release the reservation."
"Oh... okay.... thanx"(识趣地走开了〕

What a weird experience!!


第二次排队,当一个印度男生又ask for favor时,我已是第二位接近柜台了。

"Sorry, can u buy 2 tix for me? "
I stared at him, not understanding what he has spoken.
"sorry. cuz the movie i wanna watch is showing now."
(我想拒绝,但不知要讲什么〕"sorry, i can't help u."

然后,他一脸无奈地离开了。


后来,不少人说我很绝情。嗯,或许吧!当时,事情来得太突然了。好好地排队,无端端一个人跳出来问你是否可以帮他们买票。当下,我还以为我听错了呢!

不 过,现在回想起来。如果再给我重来,我依然会拒绝那uncle,但可能会考虑让那男生。因为那电影的位子已是limited了,给他买到票,也未必是个 好位。当然,我也会征求后面排队的意见。可是,话说回来买不到票是他的问题,应该给他教训。而且,他和之前那uncle的行为,跟抄位有什么分别?要我做 帮凶,开玩笑!


The question is我会太执著于原则吗?其实,我刚刚真的应该让那男生。 叹,下次真的要想清楚啊!

Monday, December 12, 2005

闲闲的一天

生命如此短暂
一句人人用来鼓励人人珍惜时间的经典phrase


依然地望著镜子,不是天花板
没办法,因为我的monitor座落在全身镜前
难免一直看著镜子里的自己


天啊
我在干嘛?
一把声音替我回答
“我在好好地经营生活,享受著空闲空挡”
好一个答案


早 上起身,伸伸懒腰,做15分钟伸展运动,下楼找猫猫,看看绿色植物(松弛双眼〕,咕噜地喝杯温水,趴在冰冷的地上翻看一天的大小新闻。

再来,把昨天的剩 面蒸热当午
餐。同时,喝被牛奶和一片面包当早餐。我的胃口很大,可以在两小时内吃早餐和午餐。

猫猫还没回来,想必又躺在哪棵圣诞树底下沐浴在阳光中。洗了 衣服后,便上网了,到现在。间中,下楼用覃大哥煮的糖水及回短讯给朋友。把手机放楼下,是为了迫自己上下楼梯做运动。嘻,这种妙招也给我想到!


看下自己半天的时间表,还真够悠闲。有些人要都没,但我却不渴望,不知可喜还是可悲!总觉得的我还可以做些什么,如打工、买东西、做笔记、做家务、搜寻今晚晚餐的recipe等等。















可是,电脑座前太舒服了,难得今天风扇很争气,努力打风,很凉。难得没有
蚊子咬我。难得没有野猫进屋子。难得收音机播放五月天的「志明与春娇」!这本来是罕有的悠栽下午,待会还要去买蛋塔享受下午茶呢!!!!


假期万岁!

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Welcome to Taiwan


“Welcome to Taiwan!"
张惠妹亲切的笑容迎面而来!

I want to go to Taiwan!!!!!!!!

呵呵,很多人都问我哪来那么多钱,去台湾自助旅行。嗯,不好意思,其实,我是偷偷、瞒著覃大哥动用奖励金的。所以,就降子咯!

明年三四月将到台北台中玩玩。本来打算全台湾游的,大不了就向学校申请长假,明言正顺地去“游学”,哈哈!!!可是,小梅却不能申请超过一个礼拜的假期,所以bo pian咯,暂时去台北花莲走走。

柏宇传了不少台北旅游相关的网站给我,看了都流口水啊!

哈哈!迫不及待啊!!!!!

I'm coming, Taiwan!!!!!!!

肚子穿洞了

最近,我觉得肚子不是漏洞,就是虫虫寄居在里面。来看看我的menu:

昨天晚上,就在两个钟头吃了两个晚餐

今天,除了每日正常的三餐,我还很有情调地在三点正与表妹到mamak去探下午茶(有够怪吧!〕。结果,吃了,


1 Roti Planta
1 Roti Kaya
1 Teh Tarik
1 Pisang Goreng


哇噻!我不是很饿
纯粹馋嘴吧了!

晚餐,我还吃一碗冷面。现在,一边打字,一边喝牛奶。我还想吃覃大哥刚买的香肠面包卷。不行啦,再吃淀粉物,我明天必会变成气球了!

Monday, December 05, 2005

受宠若惊的感觉

即兴小品,一个礼拜,一个新经验。

我喜欢上不同老师的课程,因为从中可以摄取到不同的新领悟。就好比这次的即兴workshop,韩劳达老师非常有创意,也协助学生激发他们的点子。老师注重每个剧情,动作背后的意义--不会纯粹为了搞笑而搞笑,而是要观众在观赏演出后,有所启发。

不是卖花赞花香,我觉的自己的服装还挺像女警的,徽章啊、警棍啊、手铐、皮鞋啊,赞!待杰把照片上传了,我在放在部落格上。

演出感想。。。还是欠缺节奏感,我也还达不到那种严厉的女警,整个情绪变化也太快了。

旅居新加坡的上海剧作家乐美勤老师也 前来观赏。幸亏 我事先不晓得,否则一定紧张的要命。演出后,韩老师邀请乐美勤老师给评语。被他点名时,我头越降越低,但身在台上,还是要保持信心。他说剧情不错,但情绪 变化太急促了,所以少了那一点点的感动。不过,那appearance和警官的样貌是有的,严厉些会更好。虽然不是什么好或不好的评语,但老师的教诲让我 心里好象穿了外套暖暖的。


老师还 私底下跟我讲话。问我是不是第一次演出,老师,这是第二次了, 脸上扫过不好意思的神情。老师也没讲什么,只是噢一声。是不是让你失望了?我觉得自己可以演到更好。老师报以一个父亲似的笑容,说这才是正确的态度。接下 来聊什么没印象了,但老师的举动已对我来说是个很大的鼓励了。

因为一向来都觉的自己是个笨笨的演员,所以从在台上被乐老师点名,到私底下几句的话语,真的有种受宠若惊的感觉。

绍萱加油啊!!

“我们可以回去调灯了吗?”

终于 (发现自己还挺喜欢用“终于”这字〕,即兴小品告一段落了。

第一次担演比较轻松的角色,上一部的太沉重了。Well,轻松并不代表 简单,因为从剧情到表演的筹备时间只有一个礼拜,外加花时间做不必要的事情,如:灯光、服装加布景道具。我不介意装灯、调灯,毕竟我也乐得有机会学习。可 是,强“不必要,是因为我不爽主办当局没有事先好好安排幕后工作,而导致本来应该在台上排戏的演员在调灯、找服装、搬道具。若真的需要参加者负责幕前 幕后工作,就应在宣传这即兴workshop时就注明啊!不过,人在江湖,身不由己呀!!!!!!

我 的老板很生气啊!一边“气喘乳牛”,一边劈里啪啦地 骂,什么要我们选择演或辞演。如果不是看在学弟妹在场,我早都挥一挥衣袖,不带走一片云彩了,丢他一人在后台。时间有限,况且还有一个无辜的朋友也在做调 灯(他比我们更可怜,纯粹过来还东西吧了,都被拉去做灯光〕,要说气话,也不是这时候啊!逻辑告诉我不能与老板顶嘴,因此,唯有待老板呼完他的气话,等他 平息些,我就用在普通不过的无表情脸孔,抛出经典对白:

“我们可以回去调灯了吗?”

这句话后来又重复了一次。美琳也表达她的不满。语后,我们没立刻离开,毕竟他是老板,面子一定要给,等他叫我们走才离开。当下,除了想快快回去调灯,就是想办法留些余地给老板,免的他在学弟妹面前丢脸,其余的什么也不管了。

后来, 美琳在车上直呼暗爽,因为那句经典对白太吊(抱歉,中文之星是个健康的软件,不提倡粗俗的字眼〕了,老板当下一定被我炸到,哈哈!丢出这一句话,也把她吓了一跳,然后在心里为我鼓掌。现在想起,也觉的自己真厉害!所以,今天的Word of the day:


“我们可以回去调灯了吗?

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

无惊无险过了一天

明知条条道路在放工时间定会塞到像鬼降,却还要下焦赖。看著没有尽头的车龙,看著绿灯了却不能前进,真无奈!每办法,接了这个工作就要负责任。所以,每逢傍晚六点我一定要准时到联邦大道报到,跟其他塞车狂热份子斗凶狠。不要以为我小P仔,就会让位给你,我也和你一样赶时间。

还以为我会闯进一个男人世界,怎知原来平舞台还有女人的,幸亏!第一次参与平舞台的演出虽然比预期的行程表早一个礼拜来跟场了,但早些热身,熟悉环境,认识演员也不错。

工作分得很细。当老爸解释我的工作岗位时,有点怕怕。其实,我已经从昨天紧张到今天,好端端坐在那儿,也会心跳加速,手也一直颤抖。虽然翠文说不是大件事,嗯...或许我没自信吧,担心自己做不好。我从来没试过一人独当一面,加上不熟悉的灯光,难免会紧张。不要被别人看扁!!我一定可以做到!!但愿

Sunday, November 27, 2005

世外桃源之苏特拉

本来是兴致勃勃地,但事搁两个礼拜了,也懒得写了。既然有人极想知道传说中的苏特拉,降我唯有牺牲自己,成全她吧!呵呵

话 说,在十一月的某天,绍萱被邀请到苏特拉的「天与地」摄影展 (其实,是我朋友被邀请,邀请者可带朋友同行〕。其实,从中学时期,我就知道这个表演场地,但从没见过庐山真面目。后来,它似乎在我成长和参与戏剧的时候 销声匿迹了,所以我也以为它倒闭了。直到摄影展前几天,朋友向我提及时,就犹如收到久违老友的消息,高昂的心情久久未息。

穿 过木制大门, 映入眼帘的是Bali式的庭院,有亭子,灯笼,哎呀不会形容啦!还有一个角落是八角形的舞台,差不多每个角度都有两盏Parcan;观众席 的设计也很独特。不过,你一定会喜欢就是了,环境太幽美了,相机必会忙个不停。可惜地,我相机不好,在夜晚拍照的效果差,所以只拍了少许。第一次在城市 里,感到进入世外桃源的地方,非常舒服。顺便提及下,苏特拉座落在国家剧院附近吧了,大家都知道那前面的高速公路是个著名的KL塞车景点。

主 人家本身是印度舞舞蹈员,也是个有钱子弟,把父亲留下来的独立式物资改装成舞蹈表演场地和小小展览厅。当然,这幢屋子的底楼主要是练舞Studio(我 想是吧,因为有个很大片的镜子〕和储藏室。练舞Studio也可作为展览厅。主人家也不放过玄关、后房和楼梯,把展览照片一一挂在墙壁上。令我拍案叫 Geng的是厨房和饭厅竟然设在楼上。两者都很小但胜在设计简单利落。可惜,又没有拍照,因为太多人了 ,不方便拍照。饭厅前方面对著一个足已放三个六人座圆桌的露台,一眼望去是万家灯火的KL夜景,美!约几个朋友在这边叹茶,真是人生一大乐趣!还有还有, 主人家好象喜欢Lizard。楼上的墙角都可看到那动物的模型。

好累,讲很多了。你来KL的话,如果有表演的话,必带你去参观。

Refer to www.sutradancetheatre.com for more information.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

这才叫真功夫

无事忙
可不是每个人都做到的
是有事情忙,可是却要表现得很悠闲自在。

对!我已经成功修炼成果了
每天对著电脑
其实我是在写东西、修图、上传照片
当然还有通过高科技,促进人际关系。















旁人通常都不明白我在干嘛
看了我的作品更摸不著头脑
明明都没什么更改,没什么伟作
自己的部落格依然红斑沉闷
没交功课给交换日记
照片也没显得特别突出
干嘛还显得那么忙

那那那。。。
这就是窍门了
不是普通人可以做到
要经过七七四十九天才达成的
厉害吧!

飞儿月儿

Hey, are u Junior? No
Then, Senior? No
Then, who are u? Jusee, I guess. Half Junior and half Senior.

每每跟人解释时,都不知怎么回答好。
后来,发现ideal answer:
Advanced standing student

我喜欢和Senior混在一起
呵呵!臭气相投吧!
广东话、华语、英语是我们的媒介语

不要看EeWei永远都是一副你杀了我全家的样子,其实她是个最佳朋友常年冠军。有困难时(尤其赶功课时〕,她会为朋友赴汤蹈火。独自驾夜车回家时,她都会捎来短讯,看我是否安全到家了。呵呵,因为我时常撞车。

Ghee呢,很扁咯!就像我,哈哈!但她比我girlish“多多声”。虽然我们不是非常非常相熟,但当一大班朋友聊天或出门时,她都不会忽略我。小小的动作已令我印象深刻了。

傻大姐非Ailing莫属。友善、主动,从不会冷场!她常说自己的身材像aunty,but, Ailing, this is what ppl called SEXY!

如果Aaron在这次的PR功课过关的话,他一定要把我当神来拜了。人家已忙得不可开交了,还要在MSN另一头问长问短。顿时,好象做两个人份的功课!不过,这人的英文很好。我帮他修改功课,他帮我修改英文,平手!

除了用“废”来形容Andrew,还是“废”,简直是用肺来思考和讲话。据说他喜欢玩音乐,但从没见识过,太难以想象了。他曾说自己的signature是长发和胶制眼镜框、Aaron是afro头、我则是短发。嗯,我想我们站在一起拍照一定很不错。

Ken, 唯一用华语跟我对谈的senior。这人可不简单,班上的佼佼者。人前人后都是好好先生。缺点是口花花,整天“酸”我。虽然已交往多年的女友,但每个学期 都有绯闻女友。我不幸地被选中了!他吱喳、helpful、有耐心、吹saxophone and tuba (一直都对钢琴和saxophone情有独钟〕。真的差点被他电到,嗯,其实已被电到了!可惜他有女友。。。。。。

他们要走了。明年七月,我就会飞去澳洲与他们相聚了。可是,明年的七月好远哦!唯有把照片一一传上网留念

祝一路顺风

祝幸福快乐


不等了
我不知道我能把持多久,但愿永远
祝幸福快乐

Friday, November 25, 2005

不能等了吗?

What a fool am I? Waiting for an impossible miracle.
明知那是个大洞,却还要一头栽进去。

我真傻
呵呵。。。哈哈。。。
就要学翠文的干笑三声了

好不容易向车主借车
好不容易经历了半个钟的MV著名车龙
再来半个钟的寻找幸福车位游戏
终于更接近我的大洞了

买了东西准备邮寄时
才发现忘记带地址
真笨
但那不是重点

呵呵
你真的以为我到MV办事吗?
我在PJ也可以办妥,不须大老远跑来MV
因为有个笨蛋心疼你孤独,所以陪你走街
顺便看看你要买什么相机

虽然你已说过你朋友们坚持要与你作伴
但那时我已找车位找到头发都烧焦了

天真地
以为你不会跟朋友走街
而继续调查你的心水相机
降我就英雄有用武之地啦

见到你
我高兴但安耐著自己的失礼
你说真的很抱歉,让我有点白赖一趟
“不用紧”
你说会陪我走到前头,才回去找朋友
“不用紧”继续嘻嘻哈哈
跟他打趣我是经几番辛苦才到MV
后来,离别
才惊觉我身在黑漆的大洞了

本来都不喜欢毫无目的的走街
现在的情形更让我不知所措
不想那么快回家
从精品店、服装店走到书店
电话都一直传来短讯的铃声
多希望拿起手机
看到的是你的短讯
问我在哪,过来找我
哈哈。。。

关起书本,拎起我买的东西
大步地走出书店
不能等了
等一个不可能发生的事情

回家的路上
飞越其中的高架高速公路时
温暖阳光游移在停留在驾驶盘的右手
天空的云朵是那么的漂亮
一大块地在太阳旁摆姿势
原来要身在那么高的地方才可以看到
如翠文家乡的云彩
嘴角掀起一丝淡淡的微笑

真的不能等了吗?

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

不开心的事

与朋友聊天
唤起上个月
发生不开心的事
一个令我泣不成声的事
从没哭到如此的糟糕
一边驾车一边飙泪
好象拍音乐MV

那天被我尊敬的长辈教训
这种伤痛比上一次严重
中学时,一手提拔我的学姐
在会讯上公开责怪投诉我
笔杆比任何武器更伤人
虽然事后文章没被录用
但我俩的友谊已不再
我不知怎么面对,一直到现在。

*本想放照片,但竞找不到任何代表性的照片。这才发现原来我一向拍的照片,甚至自拍,都是开心的事物*

Sunday, November 20, 2005

维修中

最近的部落格一直会有更动,因为看到别人的部落格降有趣,核子猫不爽,呵呵!所以,现在也加把劲为自己的部落格增值。虽然不担保效果会漂亮,但一定会尽力而为,要给你们好看!

Sunday, November 13, 2005

大事件

短片拍摄终于圆满结束了。短短的一天练习+两天拍摄已让我学习良多,回味无穷。认识不少大人物(占士李、Christ,Raymond and Zul〕和一些将来必成为大人物的朋友(Jase and Azzah)、学习短片拍摄过程及许许多多的宝贵经历。

第 一天,七早八早就集合在导演家。然后,便启程去Sg. Long了,路途真的有够远。由于之前以排练了,所以外景的戏份也挺顺利的,只是有时因人潮、天气和噪音被迫重拍。有一幕还颇好笑的。话说我们在街坊对面 的大树下取景,不少人群止步围观,更甚的是对角服装店二楼的员工。服装店的橱窗站立了几个假模特儿,大家竞在没有特别安排下,夹在模特儿的中间,有的站立 著与模特儿同高,有的蹲著把脸印在窗上,遥远地方望去,还以为全都是模特儿,真逗趣呢!在拍摄卖nasi lemak时,我还帮auntie卖了一包呢,好好玩!

接 著,便回导演家拍室内。这时,我真的不得不佩服导演的耐心、摄导和灯光设计师的 专业。室内戏份真不简单,同样的动作一直重复地做,要达到导演的要求才行。占士李虽身为本地著名导演,但当起摄导时,也非常配合导演的要求,一点架子都 没。认真的男人最迷人。看著他高大健硕的身材、敬业的工作态度以及耐心的指导,呵呵,我真的被他迷倒了。反观,灯光设计师却让我不敢恭维。对,他很本事, 哪边灯光不足、差多少、白天夜晚灯光都了如指掌。可是,他却自持有几分专业知识,而不尊重导演。再且,若不是认识他,在街上遇见他,我都会避他三尺,因为 他样子太猥琐了。

晚 上九点多,折腾了一整天后,终于可以休息吃晚餐了。不好意思摊在沙发等吃,便到厨房去帮忙导演的厨师朋友收拾残局。我 这才惊觉什么是专业烹饪。在百货公司厨房部门所展示一系列的刀子,全都被派上用场;各种各样的锅子、烧盘都用尽。整个厨房一片狼藉,让我还以为我们将会有 满汉全席般多的菜式。怎知,原来只有三道菜,开胃沙拉、主角Pasta和丰富的水果拼盘,全都是正统的“意大利” 菜。你知道啦,准备西餐都是挺麻烦的,需要蒸啊,滚啊,炒啊,才把全部东西混在一起成一道菜!这些意大利菜,让我觉得震撼!!形容菜肴能达到震撼的地步, 真的是很。。。震撼。。呵呵。。了不起了!从没想过在家都能吃到在外值整二三十多快的意大利餐。厨师细心摆设菜肴,一流的味道更不在话下。或许我从没钱去 吃高级的意大利餐,我真的觉得厨师的功力非凡。我这食家可从没吃过那么美味的意大利餐啊!可是,我却只拍了水果拼盘吧了,因为不敢在人前失礼,可惜可惜!

第二天?我们拉大队到BB的某个小酒吧取景咯!从没进过酒吧,所以个人有点像刘姥姥进大观园般。乘著摄导和导演在拍其他人时,便偷了雪人的相机四处拍拍。接著,发生什么事?嘻,其实也懒的写了,也不过是拍摄,收拾残局,跟其他人道别等等咯!

最 后,要感激许多人。感激Christ选我拍短片,让我有机会与占士李合作。感激厨师朋友。感激Zul那么细心教我包Tudung。感激Raymond的超 大包的鸡饭,感激雪人陪我陪到睡著了,还有感激各位帮我们完成任务的朋友:Barbara, Wah, Azah, Erin, Jase and her band 和司机。
呵呵,我还发现一样事情。原来拍短片,真的不需要特别多的表情,近乎Emotionless。所以呢,当你在骂本地演员演戏没表情时,或许不是他们没实力,而是导演本身没要求!!呵呵!还有哦,为何剧组的男人都喜欢喝豆奶呢?奇怪!

希望剪接师能快快搞定!

Monday, November 07, 2005

祝福你















最 近都忙的快透不過氣了,假期也閉關在家趕功課讀書。也好,可以省錢!假期後,有個大考,PR plan, PR journal and edited radio feature story要交。由于這個學期的課程超載,所以會辛苦些。與時間賽跑,真不好玩!吃飽后就做工,每天做工到三四點半夜。每一天睡到自然醒是我唯一欣慰的事 情--目前最高記錄是睡到十一點早。

今天抽空回家(部落格〕。因為看了一個部落格后有感而發。那時我一個要好朋友的。

分 開后,我一直都很擔心他。直到半年后在重遇,真的很驚訝于他的改變。他竟然跑去買個相機,學攝影,修圖,設立了網上電臺,交了較多女性朋友,一群熱愛攝 影新朋友等等。最重要,變得生活有重心,有目標。他的相機還挺貴的呢!攝影技術也日漸進步,令懶惰的我汗顏!安舒猜說他是因為我而喜歡攝影。我想也不全然 吧!

最后,還是真心的祝福他!希望他找到他的最愛!

Monday, October 31, 2005

暧昧

最近觉得怪怪的
比较少收到他forward的短讯
传短讯给他也很少得到回复
尽管那些短讯也不需怎么样的回答
不过,真的跟平时的他很不同
太奇怪了!

不知他是否太忙碌了?
嫌我太咄咄逼人,不会理解他?
觉得我平时讲话太狠毒了?
太。。。。不知道

或许我说话的态度令人不可恭维
但我会学会收敛我的舌剑。

是的,不用怀疑
我是在意他的

Saturday, October 29, 2005

干!他妈的!

我好晕哦!
虽然还不置于世界围绕著我,
但星星已在我头上转圈了

刚刚到FUNFAIR去
竟然一时兴致勃勃
挑了一个360度打转的机器来玩
刚开始不觉的怎么样
反正曾经玩过类似的游戏
所以边一手压著裙子
一手轻松捉著座位

怎知,他妈的
怎么越转越快,座位也离地面越来越远
360度旋转已够晕了
还要大力地被反地心吸力抛向高空
干!他妈的!
顾不了仪态,顾不了有没有走光
我已怕得双手紧握座位
歇斯底里地拼命喊
“救命啊!”“他妈的”“快点放我下来”
任由大风掀开我的裙子至大腿
逼自己睁大双眼看“风景”
但以分不清哪里是地面哪里是天空了

似乎过了千年后
我终于回到地面了
男工作人员不醒目
没赶紧救我
只是后来才第一个帮我打开压著座位的那个什么什么
让我在众目睽睽下整理裙子

我看。。死啦
一定走光了
虽然朋友直说没有
但他那人说的话不可信
糗死了!
反正后来也顾不及了
跌跌撞撞地走去一角休息
差点把刚才吃了Mahattan Fish Market晚餐给吐出来
干!他妈的
竟然付八块前去赔命!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

摸索中















我在摸索中
是啦!我知道這張照片的素質不好
我對PHOTOSHOP也是在摸索中

為何要強逼我做導演呢?
我不是信心不足,還是什么的
而是我目前真的對這崗位沒舍興趣
就好象你強迫我讀歷史般,我一定不會考好成績

我不是思想古板,
我只是想做好演員的本分
想跟一個老師學習寫劇本
想花多點心機在設計、舞臺技術、灯光、摄影和音樂
我在摸索中
有錯嗎?

那天跟FARIDAH和壹齡聊天
真的讓我領悟不少
也明白婉君的看法 (但她也未免寫得太一針見血了〕
我無法客觀地說出每套劇的STANDARD
甚至我們上一部
畢竟每部劇都有它不同的觀眾群
還有我的戲劇造詣也不高

戲劇讓我接觸了許許多多不同層次的本地”戲子“
和FARIDAH,壹齡、國煌、偉福、還有我老板等等交流
真的可以發現不少分歧
說了可能會被人揍
我個人覺得真正有本領的人
說的話必會精準簡短,從不炫耀

當然他們每一位都有我值得學習的地方
畢竟能在戲劇界占一席,必有他們的厲害
但在批評他人當而,是否能反思自己的作品?
在構思舞臺劇時,是否能不要閉門造車?

沮喪籠罩我

難得放假,也是我最松懈的一天。
埋在溫暖被窩內十個鐘頭,讓我覺得很內疚,怎么自己可以睡那么久?

練歌時,一直捉拿不到那感覺
本來在家練時,都行的
可是一唱給老師聽,整個氣息運作,發音咬字
若我是聽眾,我聽了肯定會丟臭雞蛋

老師說我身體跟聲音極之不協調,令她百思不解
學了那么久聲樂,還沒什么大進步
對一個稍有音樂背景的我, 是多么大的打擊
你知道問題的存在, 可是卻無從下手,不知怎樣解決
你知道嗎?
那感覺有多痛苦,多無奈?
有時真的想放棄
不學,算了!

諷刺地是, 我不是這樣的人
念頭只是一閃而過,從沒化為行動
但時間久了,我就忘記曾經自己為此沮喪
精神又開始松懈了!

我不能讓自己停下腳步,
唱歌一直以來都是我的喜愛,
決不能讓被踐踏!

Thursday, October 20, 2005

這會是最美麗的過渡嗎?

站立在草場上
雨粉紛飛
黑豆般的雨點
交叉著偶爾的雷光
濕氣重重

抬頭望
絲毫沒有陽光
“星星是窮人的珍珠”
陽光是我的期待嗎?
是不?
但他為何還不見我?

難以提筆
很想哭著迎接你
讓眼淚順著你在我臉頰
劃過的雨跡溢出來
是現實的壓迫嗎?
不由的我軟弱
可是,打到我身上的冷風
很冷很疼

周圍的人
已投降倒下了
也有的還極力的奮斗

很久沒大笑了
期待陽光的出現
我知道他從來沒離我而去
最美麗的過渡

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

天旋地轉

他妈的
竟然搞错时间表
千里迢迢搭轻快铁到城中城
才发现今天是拜三
没有放映我要看的「A FAMILY」 和「电车男」
没得怨天尤人
只怪自己一时兴奋过头
眼睛看歪了
比头脑走快了一天


人已在这边了
随便选部电影看吧
结果就看了一部从不会选看的
伊朗电影 「Stony Blossoms」

哇!多壮观
第一次看外语片会高朋满座
好不容易挤进前面第二排中间
我的尖鞋头不小心踩到我旁边帅哥的鞋子
真抱歉

前面一排坐满了包头的女生
右边坐了一群华人年轻男女
左边坐了一对好看的同志帅哥
(我猜啦〕
后面一直传来用英语讨论剧情的男女
不愧是multicultural Malaysia
乐也融融呀!

看后没什么感觉
太含蓄了,不是那么喜欢
但特别加分于描述友谊的部分
一些镜头拍摄手法也很特别

始终不适合看手提镜头部分
看得我天旋地转
加上我是仰起头观赏
外加身体不舒服
回到家,唯一的念头
睡觉

Sunday, September 18, 2005

中秋节不快乐

清脆的铃声响起
唤醒我沉睡的心
不可再做白日梦

虽然是假期
但最近发生太多事情
原先的计划都搁浅了

又是最后一分钟赶工
我讨厌这种感觉
本想趁假期,完成之前没做完的功课
然后,为假期后的assignment准备
结果散漫的性格,让我两头不到岸

最后,核子猫还是原先不争气的核子猫

不写了。
没心情写。
祝中秋节快乐。

Monday, September 05, 2005

KL Photo Festival - seminars

I dun feel like writing how happy i was because my mood is spoilt completely now. Just wanna drop down some notes.

Fashion photography:
- think out of the box.
- backlight to create silhoutte and flying hair... when u run out of idea.
- backlight, double check of the shade
- dun follow ur initial fixed plan blindly. Idea comes anytime, anywhere.
- learn to appreciate beautiful pic, read more mag and commercial ad.
- backlight impt to create the mood.
- fill light to fill the dark shade.
- no harsh light.

Photojournalism:
- the pic must tell stories.
- read more newsppaer and mag, know what kind of photos are needed and newsowrthy.
- 'thick skin', must be able to communicate well with people; so that, ppl know u.
- publish ur photo online (eg. pbase) or establish a website, so that ppl can see ur work.
- say 'YES', though u dun know. Cuz u are going to figure out soon.
- always carry ur cam (the best cam) anywhere u go.

Friday, September 02, 2005

SUX recording




















对啦!
就是这个死人MIC
一直往下吊
害我整个人也要跟著MIC倾斜著作主持。
还不赶快拍下你这个罪魁祸首的照片,做证据。

一波未平,一波又起
节目才开始不久,声音忽然被卡著般
感觉上好象在含著痰说话
没办法,继续沙沙地讲话
用磨沙纸来回地磨檫喉咙。

接著,糊涂的毛病又缠身了
竟然忘记按STOPWATCH
所以算错时间
整个节目超时了接近两分钟。
SHIT!!!

乐观地看,
也幸亏这只是个模拟考试
否则我真的会哭的要命!

加油啦!

Monday, August 29, 2005

Depresstress

Depress+stress= depresstress

This is excatly how i feel now. DEPRESSTRESS!!!!

I hate last mn work. I tot i have prepared everything. I tot the CD can run. I tot I have time to study. I hate rushing here and there for the recording.

Most importantly, i hate my voice. For the past 20 years. never have such feeling b4 until i recorded my voice the other day. It sounds so "singing song", sounds so fake. it is just SUX! I used to think that i have a fine voice, at least it is still endureable if go on air. But, Sham pointed my mistake....... when i listen back to my recording, i determine to work hard to improve my tone and pitch. I was the first few who book the studio last week, thinking that i can tackle my prob asap. Unfortunately, I was occupied with assingment last week, that i only manage to play with those mixer. Therefore, i have no choice but to book for the coming week. but, OMG. it's all fully booked........................................................!!!!!!! I have to share a time slot with my fren. feel so pai seh man!!!! cuz they also need the time to do their recording. At the same time, i just found out the music i wanna use is only available in VCD. Luckily, Aik teong helped me to transfer it to CD audio file.

Now, another prob pops up. How to record my voice? i dun have a recorder, i can only use adobe audition to record, which "i dun know him, and he doens't know me" too. I manage to record a few seconds. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, August 19, 2005

核子猫病了















今天,穿到很特别去学校,
不是要让人家自卑,
而是,我生病了,
所以穿著有别与平常的打扮。
录音的环境“陪”上我的打扮,
真的很有文艺的气息,
可惜,没带到相机。

所以,就放张猫猫准备吃药的样子。

我病了
猫猫也病了
他有药吃
我没药吃
好惨!

今早时,只是喉咙痛
怎知,录音后,回家睡个午觉后,
病魔便掠夺我美丽的声音了
呵呵,好想很夸张
不过,我真的是完全发不出声音
开著嘴巴,音箱却罢工

后来,喝些枇杷膏,喝了覃大哥的补汤后,
就勉强可以发声了。
怎知,风扇吹过来时,
背脊一阵凉凉地 (不要想歪啦!〕
接著,喷嚏和鼻涕接著一爆而发,不可收拾。
一直感觉到痰在喉咙蠕动。*恶心

现在呢,去到那儿,都抱著一个tissue box,
朋友们,没事,就请不要call我,
我已没力气讲话了,
也没声音讲话了。
*不过,我不介意你们捎个短训问候我,呵呵!*

生病了,还要教补习,都还好
但是,还要赶Assignment,就真的觉得自己很苦命!

Sunday, August 14, 2005

纸飞机






















我把纸飞机一一抛向天空

全部都自杀性地
盲目地飞向地上
只有一个
成功搭上热气流的火车
飘走了
消失在我眼前。

我不知火车去哪里
但我相信那纸飞机一定会找到它的天空。

Saturday, August 13, 2005

冤冤相报,何时了?


单看片名,可能会觉得是部低成本的港产片。
再把眼镜望高点,看到照片,哇!好多卡士,设计也很有霸气
视线寻找著导演名字,哦!原来是“江湖”的导演--黄精PU
马上对这部电影有所期待。

影片PU开始不久,我的眼泪线已开始工作了
喜欢导演描述父女的感情。
钟爱那独特的拍摄手法,
欣赏整个SETTING,尤其是寺庙那一幕;和画面的色调
佩服编剧和导演的角色构造和剧情设计
惊叹演员们的演技
每个主角从角色个性到形象都极为鲜明


林嘉欣白色,刘心悠红色
还有一个PIZZA男戴的小红帽
除了比较特别的4奶爸之外,其余的一律黑色

这些颜色的分配不仅代表个个的性格,
也代表潜伏性的意思,MOTIF

好比红色,对我来说
是令人挥霍的青春,甜蜜,或血腥
(看了电影,你就知我讲什么了〕
颜色也让整个电影框框有了美感
可惜,找不到照片来应证。

镜头拿捏到很好哦!
令我有股冲动,想玩玩摄影机
时而把镜头倾斜
时而善用FILTER
把玩著观众的情绪。

刘烨把那自卑、恐慌、不舍、紧张的心情
像变脸般一一换在脸上
太棒了!

新人刘心悠清新,诚恳的脸孔不在话下
她的演技对一个完全没有演戏经验的新人,真的很不错
至少我自己认为。


曾志伟,演的父亲和老大,入木三分
每次看到去世的画面,我必定会泪流满脸
在单亲家庭长大,爸爸对我来说非常的重要
我不是个乖女儿,心想哪天爸爸走了,
我会怎样?写著写著,我又哭了。

看后感:
忽然间,觉得一个富丽堂皇、神圣的寺庙也不再是江湖的避风港了
冤冤相报,何时了?

*all the photos are taken from
http://www.rthk.org.hk/culture/movie/20050714_342_32998.html

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Have i taken the wrong path?

I collected my 'Writing for the media' assignment this afternoon. Staring at those red mark, at one moment, I really felt so regret for majoring in broadcast journalism. I dun have the gift of writing in english. I used to thought that i have an average fine command in english. However, what happened today has already shattered my confidence.

In fact, it's not my intention to take broadcast journalism; i planned to study screen studies initially. But, i have no choice. If i major in screen, i would have to spend 2 years in aust, which my family can't afford to. So, i picked up Ms. Rekha's advice to major in my second choice. And i felt so regret now. Throughout the lesson, I was so dull and unmotivated.

Well, after what seemed to be an hour, delving deep into this negative thought, a thought came to my mind: What do i want to be in the future?. I have always wanted to work as a newscaster or an anchor in the TV station . An excellent command in english is the key to success in it. As a result, i was awaken. I have to improve my english!

By the end of this semester, I must get at least a 3.0 for every assignment. I want dear Mr. Moses to remember my name, my improvement!

Friday, August 05, 2005

我回来啦!

HELLO!
核子猫回来啦!
算了吧!
反正我喊得那么大声
也是对著空气打招呼吧了

走著瞧吧!
我会努力POST多点部落格。

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Argh....... Col starts today!

*Yawn*

Stucking out my right hand from the comforter, trying hard to look for my clock placed on the table next to me without opening my eyes. Still yawning, I bent up gradually and took a peek of the clock. Shit! It's 9am already! Overslept!

I usually wake up pretty early, so that i can take my sweet time to eat breakfast, do some housekeeping, flip through the newspaper and online for a while. So did today.

Playing with my dumb bells, I opened the MSN messager and checked if i could bum into someone. "I planned to........" was the phrase that i love to use since i started my new college life. Again, I did planned to do my blog. However, i ended up rummaging others' blog and writing an 'irelevant' entry (this one). I put' irrelevant' because I really wanted to submit an entry for the DM (Digital Media module) in the first place. TRUST ME!!!!! I really DID!

So, what's now? I do not feel good either. First, upset over my "forgetfulness" (I wonder if there is such a word) and am feeling guilty for not going hw. Secondly, upset over my poor English after reading others' blogs.

I hate this feeling! Being a sensitive person, this feeling will ruin down my mood for the whole day! Sigh. Hopefully somone willl ask me out yum cha tonight. Perhaps this can motivate me to finish at least a blog before i go out.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

遐想

躺在硬邦邦的木板地上,仰望著順時鐘走的天花風扇,腦袋盡是混亂的畫面:昨天大家在MAMAK提出的點子、回到家我自言自語的話語情景、昨晚因帶了隱性眼睛而在看不清楚道路的狀況下駕車、等等的事情像以投影機放射在風扇上,快速地出現在面前。

閉上雙眼,身體慢慢隨著熱氣浮在空中,越飄越高。陳慧琳的大長今主題曲,幽幽地在時空舞動著,盡入眼簾的畫面逐漸從我熟悉的KL,換成朦朧的韓國古時街頭生活。就在那一瞬間,音樂停止。我仿佛被別人在肩膀輕拍了下,把我從韓國拉回熱乎乎的KL。

繼續呆望著天花板,努力嘗試為戲劇想些創意的點子,但腦袋好象便秘般,一點也拉不出任何大便點子。我在想是不是自己習慣了在盒子思索問題,而導致創意便秘。還是正如耀說,我對己對事太執著了,而常想太多必要的問題。反正,我現在討厭死自己就是了!

當我的手指在鍵盤上跳著GROOVE時,理性的右腦一直提醒我還有許多“部落格“在排隊等我寫;另一方面,感性且頑皮的左腦卻引誘我繼續做自己想做的事情。最后,右腦扭不過左腦,左腦勝出了。因此,這篇中文的“部落格”被排泄出來了。

Friday, April 15, 2005

People Mountain People Sea (Part 2)


(from left to right) Mailing, Sherence, Xiang and me.

Oops, i have forgotten to continue my last blog. But unfortuntely, i can't really recall what has happened that day.

Overall, it was a success. Around 2500 people turned up. Amazingly, i was not as nervous as i thought and i managed to finish my 7-minute-speech fluently, accurately. The speed was also all rite (cuz i used to speak very fast). Moreover, my gestures has improved too (you know, your gesture has to be big so that audience can see what u are doing on stage).

The audience has been very supportive too. They are not stingy in giving thier applause, which motivate us to do better. I guess that's they way those direct sales ppl motivate each other.

So, what to do now. Wait for the pay larrrrrrrrrr............

Thursday, April 14, 2005

People Moutain People Sea (Part1)

Phew, actually I'm taking a break after searching the net for the whole night.

Nothing much happened today except for my my left eye bengkak (swollen) like goldfish eye. I felt abit painful when i pressed my left eye ball on last sat, but i thought it might be the result of not gettign enough sleep. So, i continued to put heavy make up with my contact lens in both eyes.

Yeah, speaking of the make up, we have a stage play on last sun (That's why i put make up LAR). This event management company hired us to play a stage play at the Elken 10th anniversary function. And i was the host of the stage play, which meant i have to conduct a some sort of public speaking in front of the members of Elken. I never tot it would be a difficult task, not until i got the script, not until i found out that the stage is 72 feet long and not until i was told that 2000-3000 members were expected to present.

So, what happen next? To be continued.......

Alleh, i'm too tired to recall what has happened during our rehearsal and on that day itself. Also, i'm too lazy to continue hitting the keyboard. So, will talk about in my next entry.

Friday, April 01, 2005

I love internet!

I'm not an internet freak like most my friends do. But as time goes by, I began to discover and peel off the mystery skin of internet and become its curb (which I hate to admit it). I think "coach potato” is the best adjective to describe me once I log on to the internet. My ass sticks on the chair and both eyes stare at the sophisticated screen automatically after 12 midnight.

Last time, I only used internet to check mail, do research, chat with friends through MSN messager and that's all! Moreover, I only online once a week as I thought that it was a waste of time to log on.

Then, until lately, my pc experienced a reformation. Since I’m sharing a PC with my brother, so he is afraid that my files will take up a lot of space. Therefore, I negotiated with my brother and have a treaty with him (hoho……. Sounds serious yeah!), so that I could download song but with quota. Nonetheless, being able to download music is indeed good news for me already.

So, now one of my pastimes is to surf the net and look for music or songs of different genre. I’m able to download music from different languages and different context on my finger tips. This function is especially useful to me as I need to gather a variety of music for the use of theater. Sometime, I would even exchange songs with my friends. Well, downloading songs may not be a hoo-haa thing for most people, but it does for me! Piracy? Hm…….It’s at the bottom of my consideration! For a person who anti-pirated-CD, I do feel a bit evil and guilty when I download music. However, this guilty feeling only holds on for a few seconds. >..<

Next, with the introduction of Skype, the world is getting more wonderful. I have known this service quite some time ago but only started using it when it becomes more prevalent among my gang of friends. What does it for if your friend do not log on to this service? The most significant advantage is that I could attend meeting online without going straight to Cheras. Just because most of theater members are form KL, we always meet up in Cheras, which is 25minutes driving distance from my house. I’m not only wasting my time, but also my precious PETROL! Indeed, it’s so amazing to organize an online meeting. We could talk by using Skype and transfer our file or share our file with other member through MSN Messager. To make it looks more ‘real’, we fix up a webcam, so that we can show each other our pretty faces.

It seems that internet has become my one of my core activities in routine life. I do my research, do my assignment, listen to radio and songs, keep in touch with others and organize meeting through the computer and internet. Just can’t imagine a life without computer and internet. I think I have become a typical pathetic technology slave (a term suggested by my cousin…….. cite it here, just in case someone sues me for plagiarism). Now, I’m afraid that I rely so much on internet that I lost my people skill one day! NO WAY~~

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Paying Parking Fee Through SMS

Any idea on what is SMSnPark? I found this interesting news at one of the local tabloid. The title really captured my attention when I scanned through the papers.

"SMS alternative to pay for parking from April."

We can just pay for the parking fee with our mobile phone. Perhaps for a night driver like me, the traditional parking method does not really matter to me. But I'm sure it's definitely much convenient for those who are always on the move.

According to the newspaper, this high tech service was on a trial in Damansara Uptown, SS2 and USJ 10 in March. Hm…… but I wonder why I have not noticed it even though I just live opposite Uptown.

Well, with this technology, users need to register for an account. Before parking the car, they just need to send an SMS to the authority with the details of the council parking zone, vehicle registration number and parking duration. Then, there you go, paying the parking fee without visiting the solar parking ticket dispenser. The parking fee and transaction fee will be directly deducted from the users’ prepaid account. Taken the hassles, trouble and danger of adapting the traditional ticket purchase into consideration, this SMS transaction that costs 20 cents, according to my sister, is worthy. Again for occasional driver like me, I rather take a long walk to the dispenser machine under the 33celsius temperature instead. 20 cents is important to me too!

Next, when the council enforcement officers want to check whether the parking fee has been paid, they key in the vehicle registration number on a GPRS device. Wow……. So hi-tech!

I have never thought that purchasing parking ticket can go digitized too. The traditional method, in which drivers have to visit the yellow ticket dispenser to buy a small slip ticket and place it in the car, is considered as the analog way. On the other hand, purchasing the ‘ticket’ through sending SMS is the digital way.

However, does this digitization really work for everyone? I doubt it. First, not everyone has a mobile phone, not even to mention a credit card. A credit card is required to register for an account. Secondly, 20 cents for the SMS transaction is still pretty expensive to some people. Finally, will all the council enforcement officers be allocated a GPRS device? Bear in mind: more devices are needed since there are so many council parking zones.

Anyway, it is indeed a good alternative for paying parking fee. Thing is getting more convenient after the digitization.

Hm……. since paying ticket fee also go digitized, I wonder what else can go digital. Looking forward a digitized canned drink vendor machine! (Hehehe…… China already has this technology where by you buy a canned drink by sending a code from your mobile phone and pointing it to the sensor of vendor machine……COOL!)

Friday, March 25, 2005

New Media 2

Now, let us move to the next principles ---- automation. Again, based on what Manovich has contended in the same article, since the new media is consisted of numeric and modular, they can be automatically manipulated through the use of computer programs or algoriths. Search engine is a good example. A preset program has designed into the search engine, in which it will function automatically based on the users’ search. Try key-ing your full name at the ‘search’ box, then click enter. Instantly, the program will automatically figure out the websites that contain your names. I once tried typing in my Chinese name with the quotation mark and surprisingly found one……the only one…..match. Guess what! It is my ex-boyfriend website! Wow……>..<……. How embarrassing!

Okay, enough for that! The next principle is variability. New Media can be customized to cater the different needs of users. I find the MSN Messager pretty interesting. Users can change the layout of his/her messager from top to toe, from the user status, font type to background and emoticon. Google News is another effective tool too. Everyday, tonne of news and stories are churned out. It is impossible for us to read them all as it is hassle to log into all the newspapers’ websites. So, with the Google News, users can simply pick his/her interested topic and type in the keyword. Then, Google News will filter the everyday-news for you and choose your favorite news. As a result, no more trouble everyday to log into all the newspaper websites to read certain stories.

Finally, cultural trancoding refers to inter-relationship between the new media culture and out society. The New Media is not only changing the way people communicate with each other, but is also making our routine lives easier and more convenient. It advocates individuality, instead of conformity (Manovich). We are free to choose and customize whatever media that suit us. Meawhile, society has also contributed to the new media culture. We, as the users, are influencing how the New Media works and evolves, as well! How we adopt the New Media, the gratifications that we obtain from it and so forth directly affect the progression of New Media.

Due to those fabulous inventions and technologies, the mass media has taken a big jump in serving the public, ranging from its appearance, and speed to its functions. Indeed, the new media has transformed the traditional way of communication, yet preserving some of the characteristics of the old media that are advantageous to the public.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

New Media 1

What is New Media? Yeah, from the name itself, we can judge that it must be a media, that is "NEW". OK, it still sounds abit vague right?

So, let us see. **flipping the pages of textbook** All right, here is it. According to Lev Manovich in his book The Language of New Media, New Media is an evolution of Old Media with the integral role of computers. Thereby, not only the way of communication has changed, the kind of messages has altered too. Anything ranging from graphic, text to music and sound become computable.

The invention of internet has changed the Old Media tremendously. For instance, instead of reading physical tabloid newspaper, we can now access to online newspaper website while making comment on the editor's blog too. Also, vary from the old old Disneyland cartoon; we now have animations that look so real and with better color saturation.

Therefore, what makes up the New Media? Manovich defines the central principles of New Media as: numerical representation, modularity, automation, variability and cultural transcoding.

First, numerical representation means sampling the analog signals to digital form. Analog signals are now transformed into numbers whereby each number represents different elements or characteristics. To those who are not from mass communication background, you may not understand this 50%. Imagine this: decades ago, when you wanted to keep in touch with your girlfriend studying oversea, you have to make IDD calls. If you wished to see her, you have to ask her videotaped down and post to you. On the contrary, with the digital technology available now, you can now call your girlfriend through the internet and even “see” her by using a webcam. Another typical example is instead of using tape to record sound, we can now use CD to record sounds and even images. Telephone-calling and tape recording are analog form. Whereas, internet and CD are digital form. Although sound and images are digitally coded, it holds most of the analog qualities and betters them.

This is followed by modularity, which means a group of separated samples can be gathered together and form a bigger objects without losing the identities of each samples.

This makes me think of the MIDI composing. In CUBASE, a MIDI-composing software, users are able to compose the melody for each instrument separately before he/she combines all the melodies together to form a song or music piece. For instance, I will play the bass guitar melody first by using the keyboard, then, the analog signals will be transferred from my keyboard to the PC, next, a wave line will appear on the screen. After that, I try out with the drums (in a drum set, there are different drums; with CUBASE, you can even design the beat for each drum separately). After playing all the instruments needed, I can now group all the melodies together and listen to the full song and make changes from there. When I group the melodies, their tunes and notes are not disturbed either. They play like how they are actually, to make a final song or music piece. If I wish to discard a melody of a particular instrument, I can simply ungroup that easily.

**to be continued** (Plz allow me to sleep, i really can stand already, falling down anytime)

Sunday, March 20, 2005

"Just Married"


Yo......>..< This is another Malaysian movie that get nominated for International Festival of Women's Film FRANCE!!!!!!! Serious.... No jokes. Unlike SEPET, it's about a chinese gal with .... another chinese gal!

This one is quite an easy one to do. I just darken and sharpen the photo. then, crop it a little. Lastly, just type in the words and experimented with different fonts, points and colors. and Dah-dang, here is it! Posted by Hello

Saturday, March 19, 2005

WHITE Tapioca Kuih


Ever wonder wat is this kuih? Yep, it's a white tapioca kuih, with santan floss on top of it.

I was so amazed and excited over it! All right, i know i'm abit outdated as i have never seen and tried a WHITE tapioca kuih before.

Actually, I bought this from Petaling Street. Heard my sis said that this old man sold the best homemade tapioca kuih. Then, after the first bite, i immediately fell in love with it.

Unlike the typical yellow tapioca kuih which were sprinkled with artificial flavor, this one has remained the original taste of tapioca. Also, the santan floss was not that extreme sweet either ( I dislike super sweet food). Overall, it was a delicious kuih that worth trying. So..... if u happen to visit the petalign street in the afternoon.. try to spot for the old man who clagged in white shirt.

Oops. I haven finish my words yet. The background of tapioca kuih was blur.......cuz i forgot to adjuts the focus spot of the camera...>..<. Besides, i also changed the color of my little head to sepia form. The main purpose was to make my acne on my cheek obscure (but after editing it, i still think that this function didn't help much either) .After changing the color form, i cropped my head and paste it on the photo of tapioca kuih. Lastly, just click on the paint brush to scribble the word across the photo (sometime, i like using the paintbrush to write word, instead of using the 'typo' function, as it looked more natural). Posted by Hello

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Watch Out! Man! U're in Danger

Watch out ! man! Shiuan is driving on the road now!!!!!!ahahhaha

Yeah! although I have got my driving license like..ages ago, i only manage to drive a real car now.

Yahoo~~~~~Despite some dangerous turnings and stop i have made, i think i'm quite a safe driver!!!!! when u see a blue Wira on the road, just stand closer to the passenger way, in case i lose my control of the car and knock u down! Anyway, no need to worry so much lar!!! if i happen to 'drive into' u, that's ur fate!

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Lazy BUM Bum bum

Wow..............This is the only Saturday that i stayed at home.......WEIRD! Damn Sien ah~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!

In fact, there are piles of works waiting me to finish. 2 journals, some revisions and the theater stuff. ARghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... I'm so lazy to get things start. That's why I'm still surfing net here......... waiting for time to pass..... wait for the clock to point at 12 and there i go...for LUNCH!!!
LUNCH ALONE!

Saturday, March 05, 2005

我也很想他

我也很想他
在他的身上
我找到翅膀
但他却选择
飞到更远的天边

Friday, March 04, 2005

SEPET

You guys should watch this movie... It's dman chun. Ignore those technical stuff , like angles and shot taken, it has an incredible storyboard. Hillarious yet touching. It's abt love between a chinese guy and a malay gal. Sound interesting? Yep, this is the point, enuff to draw me to the cinema to watch it.

I truely respect the scriptwriter and director (hehe. cuz i'm now learning to write script, so kinda particular in it) cuz it's pretty difficult, at least from my POV, to write such a sensitive script and how she intelligently add in the funny parts . Not to leave out too, the casts are great. Both main casts and supporting like the Mak, Pak in the movie really caught my attention. However, some other casts are really .........hm..need some more improvement.

In the movie, Jason did mentioned abt 'destiny'. It brought me to ponder around...........hm. just suddenly tot of the stupid fella.

Check this website. www.sepet.com. you willl enjoy it. This movie.......... 5 star rated. strongly recommended

Gotta sleep, gotta wake up early to go for screenign lesson.... can't crap too much. any question, go to visit the website lar.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

男人也是绝情的

我自问自己是否还喜欢他
但···我一直得不到答案
看到漂亮的烟花
想起你曾说
我的心其实已放著烟花,因为有你在
想起你曾说
我已见了你父母,
不能再逃跑了
想起你从镜头里看著我关爱的眼神
想起你对我的呵护
忽然间,才察觉你已不是我的天使
你的天堂已容不下我了
爱你
也应懂得放手

想哭 但那又能怎么样?
他不会再因我的眼泪而留下来
原来不只女人可以很绝情
男人也是如此

你就是

Sunday, February 27, 2005

Script

After refering to plenty of sources, i wonder if i could write an interesting script.

I'm not a pro sript-writer. How am i going to make a dull story into an exciting script? There are 3 parts that describe 3 different relationships in this story and i gotta finish all of them in 20 mn. Damn it, how to creat a climax in such a short time?

Well, no matetr how, i gotta vomit out a script by tml afternoon. Here i go..................Wish me good luck lar

Friday, February 25, 2005

柠檬草的味道

今天是我俩分手后第一次见面。

整个画面,我简直可以用MTV 来 呈现。

其实,我今早才留意柠檬草的歌词,完全符合我的心境。在家里唱时,完全同感深受,顿时无奈冲上心头。在KTV唱时,没怎么留意他的表情,因一直注视著荧幕, 但我还是希望他留意那歌词。当美琳说她看到那笨蛋若有所思时,我还有点暗喜呢!

老实说,虽然我有多盼望,但打从心底,我知道我们是不可能再复合了。我的直觉都颇准的。其实,他不是那么喜欢我吧了。他现在连在MSN 上也不主动跟我讲话。可是,我真的不明白为何他又要向我表白呢?是他开始这游戏,也是他亲手结束这游戏。

对著他,我无言以对。美琳说我想得开,其实也不全然的。我只是尽量不提起。我跟他还要做朋友的,我不想连朋友都没,且我想他过的更好。

可是,偶尔触景伤情是难免的。

想通了。我还是想他,相信时间可以让我淡忘这段感情。

柠檬草的味道

他们猜我们後来有没有再见
离席了才会晓得怀念
突然我记起你的脸
那触动依然像昨天
对自己
我终於也诚实了一点

是不是回忆就是淡淡柠檬草
心酸里又有芳香的味道
曾以为你是全世界
但那天已经好遥远
绕一圈 我才发现我有更远地平线

我们都没错 只是不适合
我要的 我现在才懂得
快乐是我的 不是你给的
寂寞要自己负责

毕竟用尽了力气也未必如愿
总是要过去以後才了解
突然我记起你的脸
爱不爱不过一念之间
绕一圈 今天的我能和昨天面对面

我们都没错 只是不适合
亲爱的 我当时不懂得
选择是我的 不是你给的
明天自己负责

给昨天的我一个拥抱
曾经她不知如何是好
若我们再见我会微笑
谢谢你 谢谢你
我嚐过 爱的好

我们都没错 只是不适合
我要的 我现在才懂得
快乐是我的 不是你给的
寂寞要自己负责

我要的我现在才懂得
选择是我的 不是你给的
幸福要自己负责
错过的 请你把握

Sunday, February 20, 2005

我好象哭

我分手了!我的确是很气他。不是气他的决定,而是气他为何会用这种方式来解决问题。

但经朋友开解下,才发现有些男生真的会怕谈恋爱,但他们觉的事情来得太快,并觉得因互相不怎么认识而感到没安全感,再加上我俩不能常见面。他们就会做这样的决定

虽然我不认同,但我也无能为力,唯有尊重他的决定。在这个游戏中,其中一方退出了,游戏就不能再继续了。

我现在只有无奈,无奈,无奈。

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Wat a beautiful dress!!!!!!

活了二十年,我是頭一次有想披上婚紗的沖動。

看著魯豫那露香肩,潔白且蓬蓬的白紗,實在美極了,頓時令我看傻了眼--太大方、太漂亮了。

但愿我結婚是,也可穿上如此的婚紗,并且還要找最好的攝影師拍下最創意和自然的照片。好,從今天起,我要儲蓄錢,以便以后可以達到目標!!!!做第二個魯豫!

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

溶化了的雪糕

有時我真不懂他在想什么,既然那么忙為何還要拍拖,苦了我
有時我真不懂我自己,既然已了解為何還要生氣,苦了自己

或許我真的太空閑了
或許我真的是在發小姐脾氣
擔心他不喜歡 結果自己在那兒發悶氣 大傷元氣

話不說出來 令我坐不安 吃不安 踏實不來
話說出來了 結果卻不了了之
好像我一直咄咄逼人 不體貼 不體諒他
我是很小女人的
只要他一個短訊 一句甜言蜜語 就可以收拾我了 但他沒有

我的熱情就像溶化了的雪糕 一滴一滴地掉進無底洞

Monday, February 07, 2005

Heart attack

Gosh, i'm going to have a heart attack. i can feel my heart trobbing much more than the usual speed per minute. I must tell him. But, I couldn't be so thick face........ after all, i am a gal!!!! Shall i wait him online ? Nono.... he is not online now.......... how abt writing mail? Walau that will take him some time to check his mailbox before i dead of heart attack. Hm.......phone calling? Hm...... that seems to be more dangerous, huh? all right..........wat abt.....SMS!! this makes thing easier.. Ok SET!

**typing SMS, Dun kacau**

**Message Delivered**

Oh, My god....Wat a special day to me!!!! I will neevr forget wat he replied.




Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Dream Dream Dream

Finally, the performance has over.

Dunno wat to say, but i just feel like having a dream. A dream that i have since i was small.

Because of this performance, i got to know alot of good frens, know more abt theater, know that i'm not as useless as i thought, improve my skill and more imptly, i know wat i love now.

In fact, i'm proud of wat i have done. For eg, i have never tot that i can design things. And guess wat, i learnt Illustrator by my own and designed the booklet that won compliment from my frens, as well.

Being on stage is such a good exp. The feelign is so GOOD. Although i did feel stress, extremely stress before i go on stage......hahah.. especially when ur partner is a good actor. But once i'm on stage, i jsut feel different.

the last show, i think it's the best among the 3. At that very moment, i could just feel the existance of myself and si xiang, as if the air was still, leaving the piano notes swinging at the theater. Tears ran out from my eyes so naturally, that i couldn't stop even after the show.

thank you si xiang for being so patient. His encouragement gave me courage to stand on stage. Without him, i dun think i can handle the role. When i was at backstage, he was the one who help me to build up my 'feeling'. I hugged him so tightly that i finally broke into tears again after the performance.

Then, today i went to the chinese theater award ceremony. It was so grand and touching. I wish i have the chance to stand on that stage.

P/s: I met a fren, who i knew thru organizing events. In fact, i have seen him at some public places several times, once a year... like that.... But i always miss the chance to talk to him. Until yesterday, i quikly grabbed him aside and ask for his name. And BINGO it was him!!! glad to find this old fren and also surprised that he was in theater field too. We promised to meet on stage.....heheheh!!!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

My decision

Many ppl have been asking abt my future study plan since i quited my job in Dec 2004. I have promised to give thema a final answer on 31st of dEc 2004. And..... well... it seems that i haven really come out with any decision yet. But, it's confirmed that i won't be going to Aus this year.

Sorry, guys! But i really dun feel like talking my future study plan. So, change topic yeah!!!!!!!

Sigh, I have been leading a ..................sigh. dunno how to describe my life... One moment i would be busy like hell..... working on the theater stuff, handling ppl prob and doing designing work....no time to sleep and eat...... the next moment I'm extremely superb free..... rotting at home......pointing the remote control at the TV, keep changing channels.

So, to fill up my empty life, any idea on wat i can do? Oh, btw, i have got my driving license. YAHO!!!!. so , dun laugh at me anymore huh!