如果没有

“早知有今日，就没乞丐啦！”

二十出头时，我最后悔的事是迟报名交换学生计划。

三十岁即将来临了，我现在后悔的事是没有坚持留在澳洲，哪怕我需要再申请旅游准证或学一门手艺或到别州找出路。以前还笑同学为何乱选修科目只图留在澳洲，或为了找工一直花钱延长旅游准证，现在想起，原来是自己短见无知。

最近因为某些原因，所以姐姐拿了我的八字去算紫微斗数，她朋友皱了皱眉头，说我内心与外表有出入。看起来刚强外向事业心重，命格却适合经营家庭及守业。还有我常力不从心，出国机会（短期旅游不算）困难重重。的确是，举凡出国读书、申请国外奖学金、甚至最近到台湾打工换宿一个月都有问题。 

有失必有得。没有出国发展却换来了一段深刻的缘分。十年前，一位对掌相颇有研究的长辈曾说我太重感情，影响往后的日子. 一语惊醒十年后的我。

多玄妙！还真分不清楚是命运注定了我们的故事，还是我们改变了命运。

不是三分钟热度哦！

不知是人穷了，还是懂得养生，近几个月一直兴起学做某某料理的念头。

前阵子勤煲糖水（实现了）学煲素汤料（屡战屡败，还在摸索中），在台湾时就想拥有各面包机优格机雪糕机（嘻，还在“想”的阶段），现在则学清理芦荟。

书桌上还有一本星期天早点的recipe，同时也对MASA的料理有兴趣。前者看起来还挺简单，后者的创意食谱令人垂涎三尺。

A stalk of aloe vera can only produce this much of flesh only.  Skinning the steam is so tricky as the cleaned aloe vera is slimy.  In fact, I have wasted plenty of it when the peeler and knife failed to.

Just today, sis and I attempted to make "full use" of the naturally grown juicy watermelon given by CJ's aunt. The giant fruit was big enough to feed the family, our three helpers, sis' two students and perhaps sufficient for tomorrow's supply too. The outer skin was then used to make fertiliser while the mashed inner skin will be used as facial mask.

西瓜甜不甜？甜。。。。。。

Here in my Home - 2013

Here in my home
where I call myself the citizen
I see inequality and corruption

Reading the news about the announcement of economic stimulus for certain races, petition against Lynas and forced demolition of partial Chin Woo Primary School compound was heart wrenching.

Now, I have another note add to my "Symptom of Aging" list, besides the change of taste bud, I start putting myself in my parent's shoes. I would send my children to overseas for better education, if financially stable. Better still, I wish they will develop their career there. I love my country, no doubt.  Otherwise, I would not have returned.  But my country does not guarantee a fair treatment and better living standard for the future generations.

Pray for sanity and peace ...

台湾打工换宿蓝图（一）

好紧张！倒数中啦！时隔多年，我又可以出去趴趴走了，已经忘记了当时随时可以拎起背包去游玩的感觉。现在，要重拾当时训练的“万无一失”准备功夫，有点不知从何着手。先写写看吧！

1。写下shopping清单。（优先）

2。继续申请在花莲打工换宿机会。（月头）

3。若换宿不成，赶快找couch surfing 或 Airbnb. （月中）

4。买车票、月票和团票。（月中）

5。联络台北朋友。

6。联络南头民宿谢先生，确定正确地点，并询问是否有时间到日月潭、阿里山走走。

7。确定花莲旅游景点。

8。确定林老师南头地址。

9。赶快学拍照。

天阿！我想我应该不会带电脑上路。怎么办？

Lately, I have been pondering over this -- have I made the wrong decision to return to home country? Opportunities had knocked on my door twice and I just let it go... like that.  I was too short-sighted, over-confident and pampered to endure that few years which may lead me to a better future eventually. Back then, while three years studies in a country I disliked and three years bonds seemed like ages for me, these figures means nothing for me now.  I would also spend that additional cash and years to pick up a skill in order to secure a job overseas.

But, it's too late now.

以歌送行 读后感

如果哪天我要离开了，请千万别唱那“阿弥陀佛。。。阿弥陀佛。。。”的曲子。我心领您的好意，但那曲子勾起我儿时伤心的回忆。 心经、佛号等都不错，没那么沉重。

如果我已走了，也请千万别唱那传统的“阿弥陀佛。。。阿弥陀佛。。。”的曲子。虽然不确定是否会有人为我落泪，但那调调还是太伤感了。若能唱唱我们在OPS合唱团的歌曲就更好不过了。 Cirlce of Life 不错啊，就让森林和动物声和美声陪伴我。

安静有魔力 - 安静，能成大事 之 读后感

原来一直怀念留学澳洲的时光是因为这 – 安静平静。

由于一个人生活在全然不同的环境，以及偶然下培养的习惯，让我更勇敢面对困难，观察身边事物，咀嚼生活细节，写出细腻文章拍下还不错的照片。

暑假在果园留宿时不经意培养了散步和收集各语言的曲子、为了瘦身而勤练瑜伽打坐、为了专心读书而观想蓝光、每天专心准备省钱营养的晚餐，这些生活细节在我会马后也随之散去。

原来我迷恋的是那份- 静。

*忽然想起小时候母亲已领悟享受慢活了，依稀记得母亲又三点喝下午茶，饭后散步的习惯。孩儿现在才领悟呢！